So I'm beginning to be known as the "PEI girl" around work. This is mostly to do with the fact that we still have PEI plates on our car (we managed to get through the system for one more year -- huzzah!) and it's a small parking lot so people see me.
I don't mind in the least claiming a part of PEI for myself. While I do have issues with the place, mostly economical, it is a gorgeous little province. However, am I from there? No!
Even though a large part of who I am is the responsibility of PEI (going to university, meeting wonderful friends, meeting my husband, getting married, starting my career), I still only lived there 9 years. I was on Newfoundland for 18 -- twice as long! (For those of you trying to do the math, I was in the UK for 1 yr.)
This whole thing would be so much easier had my parents stayed on Newfoundland and not moved to PEI. Also, my brother lives on PEI. So in that respect, I've lost my connection to my birth place as my "family" now lives on PEI. But, funny enough, I find I am claiming more of my Newfoundland background since moving to TO -- I have no idea why this is -- maybe it's b/c I'm meeting more Newfs.
So freaking confusing. Where am I from? I do tend to tell people that I am from Newfoundland originally if they bring up the PEI connection, but should I care? It does tend to get confusing considering I seem to have more ties to the Island now than to the Rock. Saying that, however, I am more "me" on the Rock -- my husband has often remarked during our trips back how relaxed and happy I seem. It's true. I am. BUT, is this b/c we are on vacation and enjoying seeing people I haven't seen in a while? Would I feel this way if we lived there? Would PEI then become the place where I was more "me"?
To add to this long-winded ramble, where do I now call home? Where my family are? Ok, PEI is home. But that doesn't sit well with me. Is Newfoundland home? That sounds funny, too, since I left in 1997 along with every family member I have (we have a small family and most extended are still in the UK). But that is where I was born and raised. At what point will I start calling Ontario home? The province that has adopted us for the time being. We will soon have a house here and in most likelihood we will probably have at least one of our children here. Heck, we may choose to live here forever (even though I still am considering the possibility of moving to Nova Scotia in 5 yrs time depending on work prospects).
I don't really know what the point of this entry is. I guess I'm lucky to have embraced so many cultures and places; however, I do find I am a tad envious of people who have a simplier background, where "home" is non-negotiatable, not-questioned, and not confusing in any way!
Anyone else feeling that their identity is displaced?
Or, am I overthinking this issue way too much?